Everybody's changing, and I don't feel the same

I'm not concerned, it is not my piece cake.

Back in Boston, I was dying to get back here and see my parents and sisters and family. Now? Not so much. 

After the initial romance fades away, all the old characteristics are reborn again. My older sister seems confident but I feel like is not even aware herself of how insecure she is deep down and that she veils it with a thin cloth of arrogance and pseudo-confidence. She's too intrusive, too insensitive, too crude and too aggressive - I don't like her in large doses. I mean, the same characteristic also allows her to be the kind of go-getter she is, but I feel like she has to be the one that always has to shine.

She's manipulative, cunning and I think very jealous of my relationship with my father. 

So I'm essentially just a bit tired of her.

But to be honest, that's not the only thing that I am tired of. I'm also tired of sort of hearing about my younger sister's not-so-wonderful marriage with her new husband, and I don't like that she moans and bitches about it. She should have thought it more carefully before she carried out a nearly 7 year relationship with him - I mean, his financial status was clear from the start. If she wants a million dollar home, a nice wardrobe and just an excess of material objects - she should have married a money-printer, not a human being. 

I mean, I suppose this might be my way of defending my own feelings. I felt really upset about the fact that she was upset and I guess I just had enough caring about it. This also might be because she's just been a raging bitch lately - she's so moody and fucking snappy. She was telling me about two guys who was looking at her car and I asked her what their approximate ages were, and she just freakkin snapped, it's like what's your fucking problem, bitch-cunt-mother-fucker? 

UHHHHHHHHHHH. I mean it's been a full-month long of family time, it's been pretty intense and just annoying. My sister just told me that the watch I like is not for men - IT FUCKING IS SHE JUST DOESN'T LIKE IT. 

FUCKING-DUMB-BITCH-WHORE-BAG.

My daddy just loves me more. Accept the fact and move on you pathetic whore.

And I'm out.

♥ 

Peace and Love for everybody.

Except my two bitch sisters.

Cause I'm the prettiest girl anyway. 

♥